Failure

When my friend, who always comes to me to share his / her problems or even to talk to in times of stress, one day goes to someone else or remains alone instead in times of need, that is what I would consider to be the biggest failure in friendship.

This is not because I want to feel important or useful or wanted or anything. It's because I would realize that I might have done something in the relationship where that person is uncomfortable to even open upto me now. I'll constantly be contemplating "what did I do to make him/her think I would not understand her problem?"

Maybe it would be a change in her and not me, maybe her thinking would've changed, not mine... in any case.. i would be effected in a bad way.

Doubt

When your heart is broken
And it has cried its tears
You know its time to stop
And face your real fears

You’ve been here before
And inside you are scared
To cross that line of action
You had never dared

Would I do it this time?
Where would I land?
Terrified of the future
At the border you stand

The sun is setting
The time is running out
You know you’ve to do something
But there is always a doubt

What if I break and fall?
What if my heart turns to stone?
Oh, how does it matter?
In the end you are all alone

You have to let go of things
But it seems so wrong!
You are really not a traitor
But are you that strong?

The sun finally sets
On your contemplative mind
There’s darkness all around you
Your heart you cannot find

Maybe thinking another day
The solution would seep
Maybe if you get distracted
Or get some rest and sleep

The sun rises the next day
Your mind begins to ponder
Different day with same dilemma
Do you cross the border?

Scared to take another step
You wish you could just fly
You know time is running out
Either step back or die!

.... to be continued